I had such a good feeling about this all when it started. But now… it still feels good but I have those moments… those wondering moments that leave a person frustrated and angry and upset. Those moments when I want it so badly to work but realize it just might not. And I wonder why I am, once again, putting myself in that situation. I know it’s supposed to be hard. I know it takes time. I just wonder… because I really want this one to work.